whenever i feel down i just listen to a bunch of rap music and and then i feel a bit calmer/positive.
saw a weird dude standing proudly on a lil hill of loose rocks. gave him the thumbs up.
i actually didn’t do a thing to publicly mortify myself like i used to do in alaska the other night. was in a situation that made my brain immediately switch into a horrible mood (bad memory triggered hardcore) and decided to dip (after two drinks.. atleast one was free). yay for me, yet i never know if i’m overreacting/over-thinking/wrongly interpreting a situation. now i just try to stick to whatever i decide to do and go on my way.
need to find a new place and attempt some stimulant script.
a guy asked me to send in a portfolio for his gallery. told him i don’t have new art since i try not to dwell on old things/feelings anymore.
my new latte art style is called “the downward spiral”. mostly cus my hand is too shaky to do a nice rosetta or tulip.
falling in love was easy but he didn’t understand the way my brain works and that hurt. so fuck it.
i want to make videos. i should buy a new memory card and do it!!
left my sketchbook in a xerox machine in kinkos and someone texted me. i felt very grateful.
im going to start wheat-pasting at night w a friend. biking is also much better at night.
it’s getting cold at night.